Journey Journal Entry 2: My descion not to have the surgery in 2012.

Journey Journal Entry 2: My descion not to have the surgery in 2012.

 

 

When we began a new year I was gung-ho to start my Journey of new healthier, happier thinner me.  Amanda and I began out dietary classes.  We went to see Dr. Gedeon at Bristol Hospital, we attended the support groups, we had a psych visit.  I had to have a stress test at Hartford Hospital because of my age, gender, family history and BMI that was over 50.  I passed the stress test with flying colors.  Hurray, my mom passed away at 42 years old of a heart attack and I had just turned 40 years old.  Amanda and I had our endoscopes scheduled for the same day.  While waiting to have the procedure done the doctor from Anastasia would not do the procedure because we did not have cardo clearance yet.  I lost a day from work.  Between leaving work early for doctor appointments and diet classes the weather was horrible I had been missing snow days from work.  My father had a life threatening spinal tumor that he choose to have the life threaten surgery to remove the tumor.  At the same time my grandfather unexpectedly sold the family home and that sent into a depression.  I began having thoughts on if this was the right time for me to have the surgery or not.  My youngest daughter just turned 9 years old and my wife Jen is disable.  Who was going to take care of them if I become disable myself or worse die.  Then Dr. g told me I had to have a filter to prevent blood clots and that was more time loss from work.  I had to take time off for Amanda’s surgery my father’s surgery.  Things were compounding on why I should not have the surgery.  After speaking with Amanda, my wife, brother, sister and father I choose not have surgery.  The timing was not right.  Amanda had her surgery on 6/27/12 while I was suffering my bronchitis that lasted two weeks.